I've been real busy taking care of dad and his house is a mess. I want to go to my own place and have my own life. It sounds selfish but I'm very sore and tired and he's into the booze. I've done so much work here in just a few weeks and I'm tired of it, because he doesn't get how many health problems I have myself. I find I forget to take my own meds sometimes bc I have to watch over him. I'm getting old and I want my dad to go peacefully, but this excessive alcohol is affecting him. He gets angry about everything. Welcome to my childhood I say to myself sometimes. I do what I can but God please give me less pain and more sleep.
I also have to be quiet at 8 pm like a teenager. Oh well, I do enjoy some things. It'll get better.