((((((((((Mary Alice)))))))))
I am so sorry to hear you are going through such a bad time right now. I really wish there was something I could do or say to make things better... I honestly know how you feel because I too am in that same situation...I did OD a few weeks ago thinking not to wake up the next day...
Have you thought about going into the hospital? Why are they not putting you on two forms of anti-depressants at one time... I am on Effexor and Lexapro right now... I was on Zoloft before the Lexapro... but I was maxed out on both anti-depressants at the same time. Effexor really did help but I think my body is getting use to it after 4 years being on it. You should give it a thought about going into the hospital... It isn't that bad and all they want to do is get you meds that are going to work for you... Been in the hospital twice now. First time I went against my will...second time I went freely...The second time was a better experience then the first...don't like handcuffs and ankle chains... and I got taken to a hospital 4 hours from here the first time because it was against my will. I know this is probably not what you want to hear but you also have a little boy that won't understand...and he really needs you...I have struggled with that for many years...I told my husband I would see my kid though school... They are both finished with school now but my daughter threw in a wrench in the mess... my Grandson... Now I battle myself because that part of me wants to go but that other part keeps saying .... you have to be here for Jarod now too... I'm his only grandparent on this side of his family. Please think of Alex before you do anything...I once took my van to drive it into a tree... I was going 90 MPH... never saw a tree big enough on that road ... there were many... but at the end of the road all I saw was a vision of my kid in my head...That was the reason I had to be here... for them...SO PLEASE... Think of ALEX first...think what his life will be without you... he missed you for one night... think how he will miss you for a life time...