I just spoke with my therapist. That was a tough conversation. I acknowledged out loud that I do not know which direction this will go in. I told him that I need to see sustained improvement in my husband's behaviors, and it's only been three months so far. I feel like six months is a good benchmark to reach in order for me to feel more secure and certain within my relationship. But I fear he will revert back... I worry that once he relaxes and feels like he has me again, that the abuse will resurface.

And what concerns me the most right now is that I am no longer empowered financially to leave him. I am unemployed, I am on unemployment benefits and I am having to use my savings in order to make ends meet right now.

However, IF the abuse were to resurface, I would definitely say to him that the relationship's unequivocally over, regardless. Yet this means having to live under the same roof until one of us could leave or until I am employed again.

I am scared. I am not feeling settled, and the uncertainty scares the hell out of me right now. This is around the timeframe that abuse may resurface again.

I am praying that the improved behavior continues. I haven't seen one hint of the anger that he used to exhibit, so that does give me some hope at least.