So first post on this thread....been very dissociative lately, and more so the past 2 weeks. Having a disruption in therapy, causing me to feel like ive been abandoned, walked out on, left, etc...and its not due to my therapist but rather the process of insurance, authorizations etc...so have had to stop therapy while it gets sorted out. I know logically its temporary but emotionally i feel like SHE has betrayed me, abandoned me, etc...i cant help but feel distant, withdrawn, and dissociated from her.
Everything always feels like a hurricane moving through me, when reality is, just a cloud in the sky.
I cant help these reations, and was wondering how do you cope with it? I get hooked in often, and realize it hrs later or days later. I hate it. As much as i tell myself that i am an adult, my younger parts or teenage parts take over. Any thoughts?