That was probably a long title, huh?

I will be married for 25 years next month. Things have never been as good as they were when we first dated, but it's only been maybe the last 48 hours that I have really realized that I am a victim.

I hate saying that.

At any rate, I don't know what else to do. I keep reading articles, sitting at my desk with tears pouring down my cheeks. I have a good job in the field I've always worked in, and to actually leave, I need to keep it.

But - with this revelation - I am a MESS. And I am the only person at my job that performs my function and we have a lot of important deadlines - so I can't take PTO. I guess I just need to compartmentalize.

I don't have anyone to really talk to - okay I have no one. So I just have these thoughts swirling in my head but know I need to get to work!

Any advice on how you've dealt with work situations and coming to terms with the hell you've been living through? Just to give you background - I am a Marketing Director for a small software company reporting to our CEO - we have about 60 employees and I am the only marketing person.

Maybe just posting will help.