Fuzzybear, I can wholeheartedly relate to what you are saying, and I'm sorry that you are feeling this way. It often feels like the things that will provide us with immediate release to feel better are the things that hurt us the most. So, I don't think that you are weak. I think that any habit is hard to break, especially while trying to form new habits. And, I think an element of that is what you are already doing - acknowledging that there are moments when it's harder to exercise new, healthy habits as opposed to our old, maladaptive ones. I can empathize with feeling weak, but from my perspective, I see you as strong for recognizing what it is that you want to do but make a different choice instead