Listening to some orchestral music that I THOUGHT was Pablo Casals playing Bach but I don't hear any solo cello? Maybe I'll hear it as I go; or maybe I'll just hear soothing orchestral music? Not usually my thing, but it's one of my CDs that I didn't even know I had. I'm trying to listen to more of my CDs and records. Just as background music.

I wish I had a friend to come listen to music with and hang out. But after what Karen did yesterday, I don't know that I wish to talk with her for the moment. I know she saw my face book message yesterday asking how things were going. But no message about how she is sorry she didn't get back to me yesterday and I know we were all set up for her to visit after work/errands. I even said to call when she's on her way just in case I was out.

It feels weird that I don't have much to do since the apartment is clean and tidy! Maybe I should go grocery shopping again? I don't have a ton of food, but I have enough so I can eat today.

Yesterday, when N1's girlfriend was here, my mom was also here and I just sat and listened while they talked. I learned that my mom was on antidepressants back when she and my dad got divorced ('93) and one other time I can't remember when it was. She was trying to tell N1's gf that AD's just make it easier to deal with things, but doesn't make those things go away. I had no idea my mom had taken brain drugs!

Oh I get it now- there will BE no cello solos on this CD because Pablo Casals is the conductor! D'oh. Well oh well. Hey! I just found a CD of Libera- the new-age boy choir from England- that I didn't know I had! I'd much rather listen to this than orchestral music!

I really should organize my CDs. They are all jumbled up. Why do I feel like I must do SOMETHING?! I feel like I have to clean something or tidy, but everything is already clean and tidy! I could get my night stands but that would require going out and spending money. I don't want to spend money until I know what my rent is going to be. Right now, my salt lamp and regular lamp are sitting on top of my dresser next to each other and my CPAP is on a metal stool on the other side of the bed. This could stay this way indefinitely. I don't NEED night stands... Would that just be a waste of money? I mean, I had to get lights- including the colorful one in the living room- so I had to spend that $100 but I don't know that I want to spend another $100. I kind of like having money in the bank, even though some of it is going away to pay rent.

It sure is a gorgeous day out today. Sunny and puffy white clouds and 68 F. I have my balcony door open with the screen door closed. Been sitting out there a lot today.