I didn't go there today. I was stressing a bit about it , but the conversation started differently and somehow morphed into me mentioning a new stress/fear issue. I don't think I was avoiding anything. In fact I am proud of myself for going with the flow today. Where we went I was TOTALLY unprepared for, but I survived.

Of course right at the end of the session she said.. We don't have time to talk about this now...but, where do you think you developed this fear from? Do you think it is connected to your childhood abuse? So it is back again.

Hmmm, wonder were my mind will take me this time.

Jello, I don't know about the ego state stuff either. I just realize now that a part of me surfaces when I am alone and usually late at night. I guess everyone has this somewhat. This part of me is very reflective. It seems as though my T throws some statements out that are not acknowledged or recognized as meaningful to me during the session, but then mean something to this other part. We've talked about this when I was writing her. Apparently, I present myself in these writings is from a different perspective than the one I bring to the session. I think lately since I have stopped myself from writing her, now I write myself.