LT - I can relate to the feeling of things being taken away after COVID. L and I have been doing "I love yous" after every session. We only started doing that since COVID. She also let me borrow her blanket for this time. I know it's hers, but if/when she takes it away, I'm going to be heartbroken. And I lent her a bracelet of mine so she would have a part of me. I don't want her to give it back even though the charm is expensive (it's a micro Amigurumi elephant).

I also understand about being frustrated and lost(?) without having solid boundaries. L and I have been starting to talk about her boundaries. They don't make any sense to me. She says it's not about me, but it's hard not to take it personally. She's supposed to clearly explain to me her boundaries sometime soon. I actually confronted her if her boundaries were ethical. She said they are. Was scary as hell to ask that because what if she took something away?

I know that doesn't necessarily help you. Just wanted to relate to you so you know you're not the only one.