bizi, sending positive thoughts hoping that will keep the storm at bay to the greatest degree possible.

bpcyclist, I hope that you will call your psychiatrist and let him know that you dissociated during your appointment. He must know that you have been doing very poorly lately. It is quite evident to me. Having read your posts for quite a while now, I am most worried about you now than I have been in the past.

Sapien, big hugs to you. I hope your friend will reach out to you. I will say that as a person with bipolar disorder, I have noted, many times, that people can sometimes be at a loss for what to say or do to help. Some people are just not equipped or in the know enough how to help. That does, indeed, hurt, but please don't take any offense if/when that happens. It is not you. So often people here are in crisis and write about suicidal thoughts. I have had them, myself, in the past but still often feel powerless to help. My family was deeply affected by a loss as a result of bipolar depression. You'd think I more than anyone could help others, but I still feel powerless to help. I don't know what is right to say, sometimes. I'm afraid that what I say/write will be wrong. But that doesn't mean I don't care when I don't respond. I really do!