Thank you all ! I really feel i have some friends here.

nowhereturn - thanks for your deep kinds words. I don`t know i was always looking forwards to having more friends in college. But anyways this is a very beatiful post and you are right about me seeing the good inside, i believe every human being has it.

Hyper and Rio
Thanks for understanding

Rio i am happy you acme and shared it with me. I don`t have social enxiety but really it can be maybe a good idea. At the begining they though that the table was going to be filled completely and there would be no room for me. Then i think that yeah i could sit there without asking because heck this is MY apratment as well as HER. I pay for it just as much as she does (well my parents actually) and i have all the right to do so.

Today i did something i do at home. I refused to let that news on TV noise bother me and closed her room when she went to the toilet. Then she sadi "No _____(my name), i want to hear it from the kitchen.:" I was eating and i decided to take my food to my room (ha! again) and ate here. Now i feel good because i finally am not afraid of what she will say and do WHAT IS COMFORTABLE FOR ME what can i do that i CANNOT TAKE this annoying sound of a TV or a radio working. She turmed the volume up and i just came here and here i am.

You may think i am a strange person ...lol. But i prefere reading the new in a newspaper or online....not listening ..i just hate it.

Thank you all for replying..it means a lot.