I have felt the same way, Fuzzy. I totally relate to the "too much, or not enough. When I am hypomanic/manic or anxious I can overwhelm people. When depressed, I easily "fall off the map".

I try very hard to be a great support to my husband. I pick him to put my greatest effort into. I try to help folks here, as best I can. I have worked harder to develop a closer relationship with my sister. I feel good about that. Now friends...there's a lot of burned bridges, I'm afraid. Now with my move abroad, I want to further develop relationships with my husband's youngest nephews and one of his sisters. As for friends there, it's all new opportunities. Fresh starts.