Thanks, Scarlet. Feel free to share as much as you like about your experience--I find it helpful to hear what others have experienced (which is also part of why I share mine). It felt very much from Dr. T today that he's trying to do what's best for me. This one line he said, in response to something I was saying, really struck me.

We were talking about how he'd said once the pandemic is over that he'd start pushing me more. Which I had felt meant he'd be less supportive. And he said how he has pushed me a bit during the pandemic (where I became so I didn't want to step outside the house at all). I said something about how in my head, I think maybe I see pushing as meaning "less caring," but I guessed that didn't really make sense. That I didn't think that if he's pushing me, he's not caring. And he said, "It is the only reason I'm pushing." As in, if he didn't care, he wouldn't push me. And it really affected me.