today was so so so bad.
i have been so scared all day.

this morning when i woke up i was about to leave for school and my mom said "why was there a knife in your dresser" and i froze. I was like um because i ate dinner up there. Then she said 'well why was it in your drawer." Then my bus came and i had to leave.

I failed my history test today because i just counldnt foccus. I was stairing at it the whole time.

I know whats going to happen when she gets home. Its going to be a repeat of last year. She is going to say im stupid and dumb and tell me she can have me locked up with others like me and that i embaressed her. Thats what she said last year when i said i only did it three times and never would again. She believed me. I am srewed.

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