I've never been loved, not even by my parents (who tried all they could to abuse me and make me feel unwanted)

I didn't have a school crush, I didn't have a boyfriend, I've never had a kiss.. actually it got to the stage where someone even actually asked me if I wanted them to send me a valentines card. so embarrassing. they just felt sorry everyone had one but me and not me.

oddly enough, I'm okay about it.

I mean the way I see it is that I don't even love myself. how is anyone else expected to?

not having my parents love me was a bit... well, tragic. but they made their choice