Oh my God Yes!!!!

I live in a tiny flat 1 bedroom. I can't keep it clean. I struggle to keep on top of the cleaning as I just get too distracted. This means it piles up. I start cleaning say my 2 smallest rooms (kitchen and bathroom) but my biggest challenges is my bedroom. I haven't slept in my bed in over a year as its too messy. You can't see the floor or bed. I've been sleeping on my sofa the whole time. My Sister came to help me cleaned and I mean she was on her hands and knees cleaning my floor etc. But I'm so embarrassed I refuse her entry into my flat.

I haven't had a visitor ie friend or family up in over 4 years I'm so embarrassed. My CPN has gave me a date in Nov I must of cleaned by or she or someone in my mental health team will come and cleaned my house. But I can't have that happening. I can't have them thinking badly of me