You know pink, when you talked about going into hospital I didn't see why, but wasn't going to put a damper on it. I supposed I was missing a big piece of your puzzle.
However, that they didn't take you in, that rather sits better with me. I hope it's a good thing after all?
Hospitals are mainly to: stablize a patient who is suffering a psychotic break; give a patient supervision while they begin a new medicine or a new dose; give the patient and their doctor a period of "safe" time to plan out future therapy schedules and needs.
You didn't seem to fit any of those needs. But I will still give you the benefit of my doubt

and hope you will be okay.
Stick around here at PC while you work through those raw emotions of being denied entry. I am sure that is a big disappointment, since you had it as a goal.