I've been feeling really depressed about work lately-- a lot of people have quit and we are so slammed with Rx's it's overwhelming. I only stayed for three hours today-- I just needed to take a time out and seriously think about where I'm headed. I work in the medical field, but it holds very little interest for me. I chose to get a job in this field because it's a steady source of income-- after all, come hell or high water, people will need their meds. But what I really love doing is making art. I want to make a career out of illustration (my dream would be to design an album for a rock cover). But I feel so lost on how to get there. The last time I took a job that thrilled me and inspired me, I got burned really bad from it. So I chose to go the safe route this time and take a job that has no meaning to me. But now I feel smothered and stifled. I feel like I'm not doing what I was meant to do. And quite honestly, although I'm very good at my job, it is really burning me out. I couldn't do it today. I feel guilty though, because I know I should be grateful for even having a steady source of income right now. And I am. I just really need to pause and think about things. I'm not sure what kind of response I'm hoping for on here, I just needed to get this out.