I have Bipolar Disorder and I have been hospitalized twice. I think you should call your Doctor or go to the Emergency department if you feel you need immediate treatment. I was taken off my meds completly last summer because a Psychiatrist I was seeing told me-I had put to much weight on. Thus, I became very manic and psychotic and I had to go to the hospital on my own several times before I was admitted and received help. The funny thing was they also found I had a thyroid problem. If I did not go I would not know I also had a physical-thyroid problem with me. Try to be strong-talk to your Doctor and explain how you our feeling and what new things you find you our doing or go to the hospital and do not feel afraid or ashamed to express what you our going through.
Take Care!