I hesitate to post anything here out of fear of upsetting you, but have you considered that you'll just have to move on? I am not discounting your pain. But just trying to help. You might have to take the loss and move on with life. Because ultimately, life lived thinking about your past therapist (who clearly hurt you) is much worse than a life lived not thinking about the past therapist who hurt you.

I've had similar b.s. with therapists. It sucks. It really does.

Also, have you found some other mental health professionals that you can work with and can make progress with? I think that'd be important too.

One time I got traumatized by some girl who lived in the group home with me, all of us mentally ill and hurting a lot. I mean, dang. I haven't even talked about that for years. But go figure, the head psychiatrist there said "I'll just have to get over her". I mean, what a blow. It's awful that we have to go through things like this.

When we get involved with someone on that level, and then that person abandons us, it hurts a lot.

If you feel differently than what I've said here, please disregard my advice, but just know that there are people out there who do care.