My therapist does not disclose a lot, which is part of his modality. Because I know this, I pretty much never ask him ANYTHING AT ALL to be on the safe side because I find it humiliating to have to have justify asking even the most innocuous question.

We were having quite an intense session last week and I finally felt comfortable in the moment to ask him something along the lines of why he became a therapist (and this is after YEARS of seeing him) and he became very uncomfortable and said he could not answer.

Obviously, intellectually, I understand all the reasons why he can’t/won’t answer, but as time goes on, the shame has become immense and I just feel like I can never see him again, as if pushing someone else’s boundaries, even accidentally makes me just the worst most stupid person alive (which I know is quite dramatic).

I am sure I will still be able to drag myself to session later this week, but I just wanted to hear if anyone else had experienced something similar and worked it through.