I'm really worried about her. She has been suicidal before, but from what C has told me, she is worse. When we talked, she sounded ok but that doesn't' mean she's out of the woods. It's one thing when I am sui - then *I* am in "control". But now everything is out of my hands, except to let her know that she is loved. C went and got her Starbucks and brought her a video game machine and some books. I wanted to go along to the hospital, but with COVID that's not a good idea. They want as few people as they can there. Even C couldn't stay: she just had to drop N1 off and leave. She can drop off the things for her and that's it. I am really worried but glad she is safe at the hospital. I am waiting to hear that she's been admitted.