((((((((((((((((((((TaintedGoth))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you have so many overwhelming thoughts and emotions. That is a very complex situation to work through. Maybe you can talk to your dad after he talks to your neighbor. Something such as what happens effects everyone and may be something that has to be worked out.

I am sorry that you could not find another way to cope but sometimes it just seems out of reach. I hope you are able to work through some of your feelings and find another way to cope. Please feel free to PM me if it will help.

BB