I so wish I could let people in. I worry that people will be angry at me for living in a s£££ hole.

I erm... worry about rodents coming into my house. It is a fear and I'm trying to keep my kitchen in particular clean. I will die if I see a mouse or rat I honestly will.

I don't want people to think badly of me.... I already feel like a failure. I struggle to take my bin out and the recycling. I'm afraid to admit I have stopped recycling cause its too much to handle.

Honestly I have always been untidy ie my shared bedroom with my Twin was a tip it was a stand in joke "oh I know which side is Laura's" cause it was always cluttered etc. I moved into live with a friend and no joke I was scrubbing the flat top to bottom.

Why can't I just live in cleanliness.... ironic thing is I have OCD its a joke in the family cause I have OCD yet my flat is a tip

I feel like I can't move when my flat is tidy as I just mess up. I feel like the Tazmania Devil all the time