This has been a deeply disturbing experience for me @TunedOut, I had loved my sister and never imagined she would ever do all the things she chose to do. I had no idea she carried all this jealousy in her. Turns out the nicer I was, the more she got jealous. The person I thought she was and loved, never really existed. The fact that she can be so cold and calculating has shocked me so badly.

I have repeatedly said how my wheel house simply doesn't think the way she thinks, it's true. She has shown me how it actually pleasures her to cause me hurt and anger and pain. I could never write a letter to her letting her know all this either because a letter would actually make her feel pleasure and empower her. I think that's sooo sick. I sure do look at her in a very different light now. The person I thought she was is "dead" now. I never thought I would EVER feel that way about her. It's been a very different kind of grieving and effort to come to terms with. I innocently embraced something that never really existed. I have to say that experiencing this level of deception can really bring about questioning self. It sure did blindside me. I could never have done any of the things my sister chose to do.

You are right TunedOut, what she has taken is just "things". And no matter what she takes, she can't take away the closeness and all the good times I had with my mother and father.