thinking about my session later today and wondering how uncomfortable it is going to be. last week i was so overcome by shame it was exhausting trying to be apart from it. i realized a few days ago well duh, of course i spend a lot of time all up in my head, why would i want to be down in this body that holds so much shame?! And, you were NOT "too gentle". Not.Ever. I needed gentle. If you had been like you were last week from the get-go, I would have bolted and never looked back. I could not have handled it. Little Artie/I needed you to be the good mother that she didn't get and she needed it for a long time, apparently, to rewire some things in my brain.

Ha! And apparently you must know that I am thinking about you right now because as I am typing this, your "see you at 4pm" text just popped in!