I totally understand the grief you feel, having that safe space and then it's gone. I had a very safe space when I stared therapy with a pastoral counsellor, we transitioned from the church office to her home. For years that became a safe place until she terminated me. It was nice to walk around where she lived before the session and afterwards. The town that she lived in I totally fell in love with. Small town feel. It took along time to let go of what was safe and no longer there. I often miss that with my current t's office. It took some getting used to. My therapist i have now has really helped me feel safe again in her office. Hugs