Buckeye,
I am new here as well. I recently filed for divorce, and I worry about our son as well. I can totally relate to your feeling of worry for the future. I feel as though I am at this weird "in limbo" stage, just waiting to see how things fall. I found myself worrying about step 12 & 13, when I hadn't even faced step 2 yet. I'm a type A personality that likes to be in control, so this situation goes against every fiber of my being. But I am learning to let go. To stop and look at the next step before all the other steps. I found a great counselor online that does video meetings. In the beginning I would just vent about my husband, but the discussions have transitioned to me. I realized that I had lost myself somewhere along the way. Do you have a good support system? Not sure if finding a counselor is an option for you. But I think talking to someone may be super helpful. By no means am I an expert on this, especially since I am muddling my way through the divorce process myself, but please know that you are not alone out there.