My apologize for such a late reply!
Thank you both for your suggestions, really, I appreciete your help. Not going to lie, I totally forgot what I wrote in my previous post, and after re-reading it I feel quite surprised that I basically wrote the same post again. To tell some updates since May, I haven't done much to help myself from such state since then - only pinned an email adress of a psychologist I got suggested, and that's it. I haven't got inspected, as everyone from family thinks I am totally alright, just having problems with sorting my thoughts, and I'm not sure if I could book the specialist myself "secretly". Also that psychologist I mentioned in my last post - I had that one few years back, since then I was "on my own".
Your replies made me think about it again, so I finally pushed myself to write an email atleast to that psychologist. I'm going to see him tomorrow for the first time, I'm scared like a little mouse, but hopefully, he'l tell me what should I do with myself next. Thanks again guys.