During my teens I went through long spells of believing I was psychic, and it tied into some weird narratives from Mayan mythology and something about being an alien. I thought I could sense people's moods and auras, know about things that happened to them, see omens about the future, and I believed that I could kill myself in my sleep just through willpower. I was never diagnosed with anything at the time, and I still don't know what it was. Now I can't go back and find out. What I do see in retrospect is that I had my first severe bipolar episodes then, and I think they were depressed and mixed episodes.

Now I haven't had delusions of that level for years, so my diagnosis is bipolar 2. Occassionally I get some weird stuff, but it's always sub-threshold and lasts only up to a few days. Like I'll be really paranoid for a week that the IRS is monitoring me, or that some government agency has hacked my computer, is tampering with my meds, etc. I never completely lose the ability to question it, so I don't know what to make of it. It's definitely not full-blown psychosis but I feel like I sometimes "skirt around the edges" of that. I always just kind of shrug it off, but it does make me wonder if it will ever escalate into something more. I believe it happens mostly during my mixed episodes. Those tend to be my most severe episodes, but I think my Pdoc perceives them mostly as depression and doesn't see the manic aspects to the same extent that I feel them.