You are NOT unloveable. I have lived alone for 19 years (after a divorce) and while I would love to have someone in my life (on dating sites for many years, not working); I am used to it.It takes time. Everyone deserves to be loved. I know it is a trite saying, but everything is a choice in life. Do you have friends? Do you have hobbies? I sometimes (also) wonder if I will be alone for the rest of my life, but I won't give up hope. Keeping a journal can help....maybe seeing a therapist could help. Are there any groups you can join? Loneliness is a major problem in society; all we can do is reach out to others. Don't allow others (ex-wife) to define who you are. YOU get to decide that.