I think today's session was very good...I feel good with this T, not something I always feel.

We talked about some things, and I told her about me being so sick of hating people anymore. Yes, I am the queen of hatred, the unforgiving queen. But lately I am really sick of it!

I admitted to her that one of my abusers was someone I didn't hate at all and had only done so because I was supposed to hate him. And I have never been angry at him...but had such a strong belief that if someone does you harm then you are supposed to hate them with all your might. But I'm tired of that...I don't have it in me to hate him anymore...so sick of it. I think she was happy to hear this because she smiled such a huge smile.

My homework is to journal about my goal, hopes and dreams...where I want to be in 10 years, 20 years, etc. I usually don't make plans...cause I always tend to break them. So I don't plan at all...but I guess maybe I should, right? You've gotta have some goal in life.