So today, there was a lot of sighs from my T when I started talking about how I felt so similar to how I was 2 years ago and immediately the whole tone of session became dead cold.

2 years ago, I went from being healthy to extremely underweight in just a few months, she knew I had an eating disorder, but it probably was still shocking for her to actually see me almost disappearing into thin air, and getting thinner and thinner every week.

I have the feeling that kind of traumatised her, and today she just kept sighing.

I don't know, it's weird. And it almost made me feel guilty that I made her felt that way. It must have been horrible for her to see me getting worse and worse. She never talked about how I possibly effected her, but every time she seem to have this deep sadness towards it, and I know at the time she was so worried about me she even gave me her personal number, which I found it's something extreme from her as she's psychoanalytic oriented.