Hi Bethanyrose. I'm in Michigan too! My divorce was final a year and a half ago after 32 years of marriage. Yup, it hurts. I allow myself to feel my feels, get 'em out and move on. The marriage was not happy. It was best to end it. You have to decide to put it behind you and look forward. You have to think of you. Whatever he does or doesn't do is about him, not you. Nope, it is not easy. Some days are better than others. But I can only control what I can control. And I prefer to be happy. So I forge ahead focusing on things that will make me happy. You have the perfect focus in those upcoming new twin grandbabies! You are so lucky!! Good luck to you. PM me if you like. I wish you the best.