I’m still around. I sleep most the day and stay up all night. I spend most my time learning German right now, or playing a game. I don’t feel depressed but I am not living, I don’t leave the house. I have been home almost a month and I haven’t unpacked my car yet, and until today I haven’t even slept under the covers here. I’m not saying there is any significance in that but it’s just how I have been. I haven’t left the house except when forced, which is rare. I wouldn’t say I am bothered by it but I realize I spend most of my day alone and without much interaction despite the barrage of questions every day and “get me this” “get me that” I hear all day long. I don’t mean to make it sound like it’s burdensome, because I do live here rent free and have food, but it’s always inconvenient. The moment I begin to try to do something I get interrupted. Just to give you an idea -- I’ve never even made it through a 22min episode of anything without interruption. Maybe staying up all night is to maximize time without interruption. Lol

I can’t really talk much more about my situation. I’ve written 8 paragraphs on the subject that spiraled and ranted and made me angry to remember, realize, and reflect. I don’t want to deal with all that right now so please just understand my situation is difficult for me. A lot of you know what it is like to be mentally ill and live with someone else who is as well who only exacerbates your symptoms and anguish. I have that – a lot. Anyway, moving on before I turn this paragraph into a rant too.

I have to be honest – I’ve not been keeping up with everyone. I hope everyone is doing well. Maybe I’ll try to post more soon.

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