hi purple butterfly
baby girl,
i hear your pain and i don't have any magical words or anything to offer you, but i do have a ear and would like to listen. you can pm me and get that frustration out, if you would like. i'm not gonna judge you or condemn you for your thoughts and feelings. just know that there are folks out there that will listen and some can even help you cope with all these feelings. stay strong and i'm rooting for you.
rayla