I really didn't think she would reply. Normally when I send her something, especially if it's over the weekend, I don't expect her to reply, and I always said we would discuss whatever I have written in our next session.

Anyway, this time she did reply. And I guess that's because I kind of asked for reassurance that she does still want to work with me, and her answer was that 'of course yes'. I guess she's right in the sense that even if she gives me this answer firmly, I may not necessarily believe what she says.

I honestly just feel like an annoying child and I hate to be like this. But it's just so freaking hard for me to trust someone, especially when the norm has been everyone just leaves, and no one is reliable. And if there's anyone that's nice to me they must have another agenda and it couldn't be just that they do care about me.