@sarahsweets, thank you soo much. I am not beating myself up AS much as I was, though I still am a little bit. I AM perfectionistic. I have a LOT of trouble when I make a mistake. And this was a huge mistake. I totally unravelled.

I called someone the night I was drunk and that person unfriended me from Facebook as a result. This is a man who was not that great of a person to begin with. But I must have gone off on him or said something offensive to him because he unfriended me.

I am trying to not let this hurt me too much because as I said, he's actually kind of a total sleazebag... he cheats on every single woman he's been with and admitted to me that he's very sneaky about it. Lord knows WHY I called HIM of ALL people to talk to that night. Apparently I called everyone I know. DOH!

Yeah, so I messed up big time and yeah, I feel a LOT of remorse over it.

But, that being said, I am trying to find compassion for myself right now over what I am going through. It's a most challenging time, far beyond COVID. And whenever I've gone off the deep end like this, it means I've been pushed beyond my limits. So I am trying to find compassion for myself over being pushed too far and for unravelling because of that.