I'm sorry. I know it feels lonely and losing the comforts of the holiday on top of it is an extra kick in the rear.

I do like the idea of shifting your perspective of what Christmas needs to be in order to perhaps find comfort and even happiness despite the challenges. For example, you could get weird with it and make yourself a Christmas card every day and write one thing in it you appreciate about yourself. You could then arrange the cards on a wall in the shape of a tree and make yourself a self-gratitude Christmas tree of sorts to look at.

I like the idea of learning to bake or cook something new and festive as well.

I agree with the other suggestions as well. Find some way to give to yourself even if you have to get way outside of the box to do it.

We will all be around as well. Reach out and connect. I'm happy to listen anytime.