I think my T was trying to tell me that I may have a problem and it really bothered me. I self medicate a lot with perscription drugs. The doctors keep giving them to me so I did not see a problem. My T says my meds are not working because I built up a tolerance to all the meds from playing dr. If I don't think a psyc med is working I take more or take something in the cabinet that I am no longer on. Well I was really pissed about this and came home and flushed everything. Now I want it back. I feel so sick. I know some of the stuff I was taking was addicting (pain killers and muscle relaxers). I think this is me admitting that I have a problem in a round about way. At least it is in the toilet and I can't get it back to easily. I just want to feel healthy again so badly. I will do whatever my pdoc says even if the meds make me fat. I want stability.