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Originally Posted by Christopher1990
Ive looked deep into this. Look into soul retrieval. We lose parts of ourselves due to trauma. That part is disconnected or sometimes lost forever because it could not deal with the trauma. Ive been wanting to see a shaman to perform a soul retrieval but have never gotten around to it. Its something worth looking into.
I feel dead inside. As if im living in hell.
This is what normal people dont understand.
U know. And Ive experienced God. Ive experienced the spirit world/asrtal world/obe
But, probably due to meds. Particularly ap. I feel like it disconnects us from our spirit/soul. True self.
This is the main reason i have gone off my meds so many times. Why? Well i dont get joy out of anything. Is the trade off feeling dead inside all the time?
I used to feel something from prayer. If i say prayer now its like im talking to a damn wall. Absolutely nothing there.
Im going on two yrs stability. Taking my meds but at what cost? I cant live life this way. I do all the healthy things im supposed to do.
I want to feel alive again.
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Thank you so much for bravely sharing this with us. I ha my first session with a shaman-therapist-type person last week. I do believe that, if done carefully and properly, it is quite possible for some number of us to reconnect and reintegrate in this kind of manner. Same end result, different way to get there.
I am so messed up that I apparently somehow managed to park virtually 100 percent of all emotion-related software and hardware (gray and white matter and all involved ions, molecules and voltages) at some point, creating this 6 year-old kid who for now is the emotional repository for all of it. So, when I am regular old cyclist, age 56, I cannot access those emotion databases. But the child can.