I can never be the person I want to be, I have already made to many mistakes have to many skeletons in my closet. I also just don’t seem to have the energy level of nearly all other people that I know, they are able to focus and get really ambitious projects done or at least stay busy and I just can’t do those things. So why even bother at all? I am a burden or an embarrassment to my family and I neither see any way that I can be of benefit to anyone, or anything that life has to offer me.