I am a weirdo and people make fun of the way I act so I try to hide with perfection witch I understandably can not reach nor get remotely close to and compensate with obsessive behavior towards the task at hand. And I appreciate you believing my idea of success is Nobel but allow me to return the favor and say you actively replying is truly kind work and you are being understanding even though I have displayed negative social traits. Thank you once again.
I do not and never have had therapy but I just got my medical insurance and upon my cards arrival plan to get evaluated and given therapy or medication or simply the right direction to follow. I did spend three days in a acute treatment center where I talked to a therapist for about 15 minutes total in my time being there which ultimately made me seek out my flaws in a realistic and understandable way on my own which I don't think that is the right thing to do which is why I have refrained from self-diagnoses. I keep my work separate from the professionals.