Hey guys, thanks for always showing so much support here.

I think I'm strong enough to take on this project.

(tw abuse no details)

The past three years I have seen larger gaps in my memories from being young and psychotic symptoms or attacks when faced with anything involving s.ual abuse. It scares me every day that my mind is so willing to exit.

Anyway, I need to confront what happened during those gaps because I have been avoiding it since my mind puts up a psychotic wall everytime I try. But I got a new therapist I like, maybe she can help.

Have you had any luck uncovering trauma without going psychotic?

I can't live like this forever, and I'm feeling optimistic about healing. I also have all these other emotions that are attached to this thing. I just need to confront it without permanently losing grip on reality.