I've been manic for several weeks. My nurse practitioner increased Lamictal from 200 mg to 400 mg. That didn't work. She switched Latuda to Abilify. That didn't work. Then she added Zyprexa, which I took for three days. I guess the combination of all of these drugs was too much because I couldn't walk straight and I had double vision. She said to decrease Lamictal back down to 200 mg and stop the Zyprexa.

Since then, I've been feeling light headed with a lot of pressure inside my head. I've been stumbling when I walk. Sometimes I can't find the words I want to say. The ER doctor did a neurological test that turned out OK. All of my blood tests were fine. CT scans and MRIs don't show a concussion, but they didn't show tumors, which is good.

I've been off work for a week. Tomorrow's Monday and it's time to decide whether I need to go back.

My mom says I'll lose my job if I stay out of work longer. And then I'll lose my house. I already have a great fear of becoming a bag lady. My mom doesn't help. I don't know why I go to her for comfort.

You guys are always such a big help. Do you think that it's too early to go back to work? Is it more likely for me to lose my job if I don't go back to work tomorrow? I'm really scared about trying to use my brain and it doesn't work. I work with a lot of people who would notice, and that would be embarrassing.