I am so sorry you are struggling with mania now, Imagine. I have been there so many times. Not really sure how many. North of 50, full-blown, for sure.

So, I connect with you personally and profoundly. My heart is literally right there beside you now. Honesty.

So. What are all current meds and dosages? Are you compliant? No judging. I have an app to remind me to take mine, or I forget.

Have you ever tried Drpakote or lithium and for how long? Depakote is a mania crusher. Four days of a goodly dose and you are very likely sleeping again and way, way down and thinking more clearly. Safer, too.

Are you safe right now? Are you alone?

Pls. do not shop online or in person. Do not email, text, phone, or otherwise contact anyone unless it is to say basically, "My bipolar buds say I am manic. I am super scared."

Di not have sex or hit on anyone online or otherwise. Do not join any dating or shopping sites. All things we here have done before.

Or words to that effect, in terms of the quote above. If you need immediate support, I would come here and or call a crisis line or ER or 911 or the NP.

People will be around all night. It is currently 0419 hrs in London and Edinborough, so, the Europe people will be getting up soon and the west coast USA folks are still awake. PM me any time fir anything. Do not make ANY MAJOR DECISION OF ANY KIND without first running it by someone. Preferably a person who understands mania well.

Hugs. You will get though this! Do not give up! We are all here for you.