Thanks for your response imaginethat. I also think that deleting posts doesn't necessarily mean someone is outspoken (it can be for all sorts of reasons, I think that's rarely the reason for me) I used to be ''too quiet'' when I was a cub so sometimes being on the side of being outspoken now is probably healthier for me (healthier than hiding and suppressing and repressing as I did when I was a cub. I had to..)

I am feeling ok overall. I was a bit more agitated and anxious than my usual earlier on today but I'm ok now.