I have finally gotten the courage to leave my abusive husband of 17 years. After a ton of research and self refection I truly feel I was dealing with a covert narcissist and I am codependent. I feel so stupid that I didn't see what was happening in my marriage for so many years. He has been both mentally and physically abusive to me. He refuses to acknowledge the physical abuse even though it is documented at our local police station. He was enraged when he realized that I was following through this time when I filed for divorce. He began isolating me from my support group which contained my best friend and our church family. I knew he be able to manipulate a few but this has been gut wrenching. I literally have no one. I know I have to do this for myself and my children. I was so strong in the beginning but as he does he is wearing me down. Every interaction with him is exhausting and emotional. However recently he has stopped reaching out and trying to talk to and manipulate me. My reaction to this has been strange. I do not want him back at all. But I find myself so angry and lasing out and giving him negative attention and then he makes me feel like I am so emotional and out of control. I have begun to set boundaries and expectations on how I will be treated with people in my family also. This has made them very angry and they have chosen not to respect my boundaries so I am not currently in contact with them. To top off this coronavirus, divorce, isolation mess, I had to put my dog of 15 years to sleep. I feel so alone. Any advice on how to keep your mind focused on moving forward and how to make a new friend group during a pandemic would ve much appreciated.