Thank you for a brief overview on the positive and negative traits we can have. I actually had a falling out with a group of friends who thought I was a narcissist.
I think I better understand what you mean now by Self absorption being a product of negative experience. My only diagnoses was PTSD but this was after 5 minutes to 10 minutes with the psychiatrist and he seemed like he was just trying to get me going so he could go do other things(I also heard the staff refer to the patients as animals here)., I don't have flash backs or anxiety over past trauma. I have had issues since before anything bad could have even happened according to my mother who has had issues with her mental health. I try not to listen to her when it comes to my mental health because I have heard so many different things from her and I don't know what claims have backing and which ones don't, for instance she has told me things like I am Dyslexic, I have a learning disability, I'm on the spectrum, I am a sociopath, I am just lazy, or my favorite is when she would say I am not human, or question if I even felt emotions, which I think she got from how I would shut down when angry, I wouldn't show any emotions and have a hard time doing it anyways. Sometimes I would stop talking because I was angry at the world, it would last for weeks until I wasn't mad anymore, I don't however now don't get angry like that. I think bringing up my unhealthy relationship with my family is why I was diagnosed with PTSD in the first place. How can I ensure I get a proper sit down and talk with a professional?