I don’t feel well. I should have been honest with RS yesterday and said so, because I was getting really irritated trying to deal with my head and the real world at the same time. I wasn’t trying to be mean but I was sort of snappy.
I just want to go back to bed. Hide from everything. Got mild SI and SH thoughts. It’s all in avoidance to the actual issue at hand.
It’s not just my grandfather. That’s bad enough. I’m also beginning to fixate on an abuse occurrence. Still trying to work out what it really was and whether it’s fair to him to say as much. This fixation has come and gone every few weeks for awhile now. I guess it’s coming up to distract me from real life current distress.
Idk. Just wanna...got to sleep, if you catch my drift..
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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